Friday, April 29, 2016

Vulnerability continued...

I am learning more and more about stepping out in vulnerability since my declaration to "Be Brave" this year. God has given me a glimpse of what this looks like - and I've only just scratched the surface.

Last week at my women's Bible study I was vulnerable when I shared a prayer request for myself that I've never really shared with anyone. And I didn't even give the back story. One day I hope to share that, too.

I've invited women I've never met before to my house for dinner. The Nourish group is going great. I am so excited to host for the third time at the beginning of May. These women have been so brave to show up and meet each other. I'm so proud of them.

I have stepped out and talked to parents at Amelia Jayne's school and just chatted about life while our kids run around together outside.

I have been brave at work, trying some things that we've never tried before and persevering even when it was hard.

I've been brave by starting my own business. Want to know more about it? I'd love to share it with you!

David and I have done Whole30 in April. Today is day 25. I could write a whole series of posts on this, and perhaps I will, but it has been an amazing experience. If doing Whole30 doesn't take courage, I don't know what does!

David and I have grown closer as we continue to look for a church - and we've been vulnerable with each other, sharing things that we love about church and the things that we really hate about it. I think I'm most proud of this and so joyful to see the closeness between my husband and I through this whole process. Anything that allows me to know my husband better is a good thing.

I have opened up to both my mom and my husband about some things in my life that are hurting me and things that have hindered my growth in relationships and for myself.

And I've been honest. I've been honest to God, to my husband, to my family, and to myself.  More than ever before.

And these things are beautiful.

The Power of Vulnerability

Take a moment (or 20) to watch this TED talk. Brene Brown gets it, and thankfully shares it with us.

Brene Brown could be my soul sister. (Actually she seems a little bit like my real sister.)
Fully embracing vulnerability is hard and I'm so glad she shared what she's learned.

Check out these points that she makes:
We must have -
Courage to be imperfect
Compassion to be kind to ourselves and others
Connection as result of authenticity

Fully embrace vulnerability
Stop controlling and predicting

Vulnerability is the birthplace of joy, connectivity, belonging and love

The power of vulnerability - and being connected to one another - is a mighty thing.
But don't forget that it all boils down to love.

Thursday, March 10, 2016


I will share this with you, though. Just a tidbit of what I got to experience last weekend.

Be brave!!

This conference was amazing.
Glennon is amazeballs. I really don't even have the words. She is hilarious and real and vulnerable and strong and beautiful.
The other speakers were great, too. The food was yummy and the people were so special.
I heard about it and immediately invited my mom. The two of us had the best time together. I could do just about anything with her and be thrilled about it, but this kind of thing is right up both of our alleys. I hope we can do it again next year...and maybe invite the rest of our girl-fam.

God is truly showing me how to be brave.
I am so happy to be part of Nourish. We have our first dinner at my house tomorrow night. Yes, you heard that right. I am hosting a dinner each month at my home. And I couldn't be more thrilled about it. Scared? No doubt. But, brave? Absolutely.

God is teaching me so much. I want to share it all right here, right now. But since I can't really go into great detail about it at this very moment, I'll just leave this scripture here. But please check back - I hope to share much more in the near future.

My little children, don’t just talk about love as an idea or a theory. Make it your true way of life, and live in the pattern of gracious love. There is a sure way for us to know that we belong to the truth. Even though our inner thoughts may condemn us with storms of guilt and constant reminders of our failures, we can know in our hearts that in His presence God Himself is greater than any accusation. He knows all things. 1 John 3:18-20, The Voice

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Xander's birthday interview - Age 7

TV show - Peep & the Big Wide World
Movie - Star Wars: The Force Awakens
Song - Dynamite by Tao Cruz
Musician - Ed Sheeran
Food - candy
Candy -Reese's
Toy - ocelot (from Minecraft)
Activity - art
Cereal - honey nut cheerios
Vegetable - carrots
Drink - diet coke
Game - Minecraft Wii U edition
Book - The Pigeon Finds a Hot Dog by Mo Willems
Restaurant -McDonald's
Holiday -Christmas
Animal -snakes
Color -Blue
Vacation -Beach
Sport - Soccer
If you could change your name to anything, what would it be? I think I like my name
If you could have anything you want this year, what would it be? karate gear
What do you love most about Mommy? I get to love on her and be with her
What do you love most about Daddy? I can play soccer with him
What do you love most about Amelia Jayne? I can play kitchen with her

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

How I choose books

This article got me thinking...
AHHH! This is so difficult for me! I choose books mostly based off of recommendations. And I get a LOT of recommendations. Not sure if it's because I work in a library or if I just love so many different genres. I read a lot of bloggers who have great recs. I am also friends with a lot of readers who know my interests. I love all kinds of genres - for fiction I love: historical fiction, literary fiction, sci fi, fantasy, Christian fiction...

Honestly, the majority of books sitting on my desk to be read are non-fiction. I love books about Jesus, the church, health, personalities, leadership, parenting, memoirs and biographies.

I am truly inquisitive. I just want to know so much.

Therein lies the rub. I mustn't just be a "hearer of the word", but also a doer. That is my hope over this year that I will read many books where God will speak to me and teach me new things, but that I won't just let it soak in and walk away, forgetting all I've learned. I want to dig deep, apply the principles and knowledge, give that wisdom away and share the riches.

I've already read a ton of books this year and I am having so much fun doing it! I'm part of a book club at a local church. I started a facebook group (from the encouragement of one of my mom's friends) to track our reading challenges for 2016. And I'm having so much fun learning! Join me, won't you?

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Funnies from the littlest Littles - November-December 2015

AJ: Do dragons have to have wings??
Me: I don't really know. You know dragons aren't real, right?
AJ: Yeah, they don't live here anymore.
Me: Well, they're not like dinosaurs. They never lived here. They're made-up or fictional.
AJ: Yeah, God took them away to live on Mars or something.

AJ: Mommy, you have a lot of boo boos.
Me: I do?
AJ: Yeah, or maybe you have a lot of nipples.
Me: Nipples?!
AJ: Yes, here and here and here.
Me: Oh! Those are freckles! Not nipples.

AJ: Do you have any straight candy canes?
Me: I don't have any candy canes.
AJ: But do you have straight ones?
Me: No, I don't have any, not even the ones with the crook on the end.
AJ: What's a crook on the end?
Me: You know when it looks like a J?
Me: Sweetie, the only thing I have are peppermints in the bowl downstairs.
AJ: But do you have any candy canes that are red and white?
Me: No.

AJ (about an "I spy" book): I guess this book isn't very fun because I can't find these things.

Xander was always extremely articulate, from the day he was born. He definitely says some funny things, but he's very precise with his words. Amelia Jayne almost has her own language at times. She says words and it doesn't matter if we correct her or not, she still uses her own words. She struggles with the hard "th" sound and it often comes out sounding like an "s" or "f" or the soft "th" sound that can sound like "d."  For instance: I want to go to da store wif you. Or, movie fe-ater. Or, twelve, firteen, fourteen...
She also mixes her words up a lot (see the freckle/nipple discussion above if you need an example). Plus, the girl asks a gazillion questions and pretty much talks constantly, especially if her brother isn't around to take up much-desired talking time.

Here's an example of a conversation I had with Amelia Jayne recently -
AJ: Da friends at my table can play aside me uhcause we can share uhcause we are all at a table. We play wif lots of different fings, like play dough and trucks and dese blocks dat stick togedder.
Me: Like legos?
AJ: No, dey have black fings dat make dem stick togedder.
Me: Oh! Magnets?
AJ: Yes! Dey're magnets uhcause dey stick togedder.

I know it won't last forever, but until then, I'll soak up each and every little mispronunciation she has. She's so precious!

And a Bonus funny from last week:

I was sick last Thursday when Mimi was supposed to come watch the kids, so she ended up not coming since I was home. I met Xander at the bus stop and he immediately started crying, upset that Mimi wasn't there. He was definitely distraught, but I couldn't help but laugh when he said,
"This is the worst thing. That's ever happened. On a Thursday!"