Friday, September 26, 2008
It's a boy!!! David and I went to the doctor yesterday to have our mid-pregnancy ultrasound and 20 week check-up. David missed our first ultrasound experience, so I was so thankful to have him there to experience it live and see our baby actually move around inside. And our baby is a mover! The technician taking the ultrasound called him a "wiggly worm" and had to chase after him to get some good shots. But she sure got some good ones! She had asked us beforehand if we wanted to know the baby's sex and we both said we did. Once she was in the process of looking at the baby she said, "Are you sure you want to know the sex?" And David and I both kind of looked at each other and said, "I think we already do!" It was very obvious...our little boy is not shy! It was such a great moment. She continued to look around and show us different things. His heart is beating well (150 bpm) and we saw his chest cavity. His skull is forming nicely and his spine looks good, they said. I think my favorite picture is when he pressed his foot against my tummy. You can see his little foot and his teeny tiny toes. It's so great!
I have to say that David was convinced this baby was going to be a girl, but was so pleasantly surprised to find out he's a boy. David doesn't really show his excitement about a lot of things, but he is ecstatic about having a son. I'm so happy that he's getting his wish to have a boy first!
My feelings were much more confused than David's. I was happy to know we're having a boy, especially for David, and was so excited to see our baby again. I feel so much closer to him (can I get any closer? LOL) when I can actually see him move and see his parts formed together. But I was a little nervous, and have to admit that I still am. I was praying that God would help me get used to the idea of having a boy. I've wanted a boy and I'm glad we're having one, but I don't know boys as well as I know girls. I definitely know how to relate to girls better. I have nephews and dads and brothers and a husband, but I'm not a boy. So when I prayed and said to God, "Help me be excited to have a son," it was only because I'm a little scared. But it took only seconds for me to know that this is exactly the way God wants it. God immediately reminded me of Psalm 139:13-14. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
Those were the words that God gave me to assure me that this is what he orchestrated. And his "works are wonderful." I certainly can't argue with that! And then he reminded me that, like Mary, I get to experience what it's like to have a son. There's no bond like that between mother and son. I don't know that bond yet, but I will. And I'm so glad. So very glad!
So, cheers! All is well in our Little family!